Hello, it's 1:39am. soon it's going to be 2am.

Well, i can't sleep properly just yet. but it's a lucky thing that holidays are here.

*clapping hands*

it's been almost a month I've yet to update my blog. busy i guess or nothing to elaborate.

but now I'm not busy instead I'm bored. I online Fb, nobody want to chat except for Rasta Man Aikal ♥ okay shall my story.

I'm single, yes single. since early April, well it's going to be 2 months I'm single. I'm proud, yes. but i contacted one guy, which i know him from last year. we are more close than before, & we treat each other as Besties. so i have 1 male & 1 female Bestie. yay! :D I don't roam around with boys pretty lately, cos I don't like & I suck at entertain guys. I look like Sec 1, I'm not matured enough for older guys. lol (: okay back to my point, the guy whom I contacted with.

I don't even know how we got close. we texted everyday, I feel like "oh my gosh" haha! k da merepek izyani. well, we fought not once but twice. he forgive me, he persuade me & all that. i was really touched, i do forgive him. he always brightened my day, even brighter than the sun. lol jk sweet talks(: but now, he's sick. so we seldom text. I stupidly waited for his text from day to night. not even one message from him. so i decided to take the move first. like finally he reply! i was totally disappointed, not really disappointed but hell yeah i was sad la kan. it's like we're back to strangers again, ): i texted you around 12+ just now, you replied. i was happy, at least you have the courage to reply me back. ugh the feeling man the feeling! ^^

I was told to wait for you to forgot about ure ex first, so yes i will wait. you kept on saying you wanted to move on, but when? i was like, no one is stopping you to move on dear. duh! just move on la bodoh. what for want to say "i want to move on, but how?" it's not the person matters, it's the heart that matters. if you wanna let go, let go. take one step at a time. nothing will get in between you. trust me, moving on takes time if you truly love someone. (: hello, I'm ure Girlbestie of course i will always by ure side ♥

oh yes speaking of "by ure side", you weren't there when i need you. I'm always being down, moody & unhappy. but i need you be there, you said you will always be there for me. YOU SAID ALWAYS. now, you are not. that shuts me down. i almost broke down when you didn't text. even if you online Fb, you wouldn't wanna chat wimme. dishearten me baby!

Online Fb boleh, tapi message/reply orang tak boleh? pandai eh. phone campak jauh'jauh sua.

sorry for being sarcastic, orang dah marah nak buat apa kan.

trololol :O

In twitter♥ I've always talk about you, but you don't seem to care. my phone is #foreversilent.

sedih uh babe ): next time, do it again ok. maintain like this ok. i don't mind ok. ishk irritating pe 'ok' aku nie! k da bye.

well, this is dedicated to you Boiibestie ♥

I'll text you to read this after publishing it.

*for you, Boiibestie (':*

✌ out, eezanie.

May peace be upon you, dear readers. ♥

so my blog has been dead for i don't know how days. let's speak good English okay.

I don't know how to start. uhm should i start on Mid-year-exams? i guess i should. he he.

so.. my first paper was on 4th May. i think? oh yes, 4th. it was English man. easy la, composition one. end school around 9+, boo! i didn't went home straight, instead i don't know what i did. seriously forgotten. it was last 1/2 weeks ago. :\

the next day was MT? i forgot oops! i lost the exams timetable, i was finding it but failed. that week has MT & English papers. so that week it's the easy paper & we end early, so skipped okay?

weekends, was fun i guess?(7th May) no religious class \m/ so my cousin got engaged at Hougang. me & my eldest(sister) need to be at her house early! yes early! so i followed her, & i got the scoldings & threatening. unfair you know! like seriously unfair, i cried in the toilet. i don't know but whenever I'm sad or wanted to cry, toilet is the best place! cos no one saw me crying except for the devil *evil eyes* we trained to Compass'Point. to get the things that Sister wanted to buy. & foremost, i hate that day okay! two words ; it sucks.

i waited for Sister at the taxi stand, so have to stand up la kan. i carried many plastic bags, hais :'\ Sister came & we wait together. on that moment, i wanted to vomit cos i hadn't my breakfast. my stomach was seriously empty! :'( i told Sister about it & here's our conversation ;

me: kak, nak muntah.

sis: that one not my problem.

me: seriously nak muntah. *head spinning* ade air?

sis: tkd, not my problem.

then i started to stand slanted. i was.. ugh you know if people get dizzy, they will touch their forehead or wtv stuff. ah that's what i do. then Sister gave me sweet. like suddenly! :O then i squat on the floor, as Sister told me to. i cannot take it, so i squat. i know i will feel paiseh, but what can i do? fainted? ==' oh yes i nearly fainted. my vision was really blurry! taxi came, i rushed & sit. closed my eyes, & reached Hougang. skipped to this part ah. lazy type. if i type so long, people won't read one. so everybody is like scolding me, i didn't do wrong & all flared up! i wanted to cry, but i hold back. )':

I forgotten what i did on Sunday. bleah skipped!

so eventually, Monday no school \m/ i rot at home, i think? was supposed to jog with Neneng & Saf. but Saf not free, & Neneng came her period. so plan cancelled. i don't mind either! :P played laptop the whole day on bed. woohoo! then the next day was exam time! it was Geog? i don't know ah. got a lot of papers, some 2 papers in 1 day. siao baby! >:(

Maths paper 2 was on Wednesday. i remembered(: & 1 paper also on that day, i think Geog. forgot ah baby! :P Geog was 50-50. ended school, slacked. & i learnt a lot from Munawwar(:

i studied last night, before the paper. & i studied early in the morning in school. my brain works! but not confidence of passing it. cos MATHS PAPER 2 WAS TIMES TWO HARDER THAN PAPER 1! save me ya Allah! ): i was totally blank when i turned to the 2nd last page. i just do anyhow & i was at question C. i do anyhow & teacher 'helped' me. lol so when he helped me, i also don't know what to do supposing-ly xD it was 2 hours paper? & i did it on time. bleah everybody complained that it was hard. so i had to agreed! :D the next day, Thursday, was Science. 3 papers, Chem Physics Bio. last minute study early in the morning for Bio, cos Amirah & friends got the paper. some went into my head, i managed to remember it! :D lol.

so... i did Bio first, it was was easy lol. then Chem 2nd, confusing ah; idk what change blue to pink & pink to blue =='. last was Physics. IT WAS EASY BRO(Y) like Geography ah. so we slacked, ate breakfast.

Last paper, Friday 13th! >:) many people said it's bad luck. lol i don't care.

so Literature was first paper. we need to do comprehension like that. we flipped the paper to check the correct pages, & Zul said this.

Zul: eh don't have MCQ ah?
*everybody laughed*

ha ha ha funny siuls! cannot take it. end around 9:15am & we had recess. Maths paper 1 was next. i studied a bit, it was easy. easier than paper 2.

whatever.

yesterday had religious class! i got scolded for nothing. )': but THAT LESSON WAS THE BEST OF THE BEST. I LAUGHED OUT LOUD WITH THE WHOLE CLASS! \m/ seriously!

HAHAHA ESPECIALLY THE BOYS. MADE JOKES, FUDHAIL AH. THE JOKER(: & my BOIIBESTIE♥♥ lol wtv. Dad sent & fetched me from & to religious class. thank you Dad♥

so today, accompanied Sister to do threading. lol had an accident between a wall.

lazy to post already, mood #burn. k bye. anything twitter )':

✌ out, eezanie.

i saw this picture at my phone. this was like long time ago. seriously, omg. i remembered that moment. we went to (place) near Woodlands. me & Shaa went to Woodlands straight away after school ends to meet Fee(: met Fee & went to the salon to get our hair done. my fringe was rebounded as they two asked me to. shared money & we head to idk where. that part i forgot sorry! >.< i really miss the both of you. my life isn't perfect without meeting you guys! same goes to the above. where did you go darlings? hais Shaa is overseas & Fee always been busy with her "Town peeps". then me? left alone ): i don't care we must die die meet! Shaa doesn't seem to care about us any more. how sadden it is?!? i seem so lost. k whatever. i love you guys (': miss the moments we had.

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told ya this post gonna be long. actually not that long ah. he he sorry ♥

but i don't seem to feel the love that has been given from them. i don't know why. ugh i can't think much any more. cannot like that.

& I've been waiting this person to message/call me. it has been 5 hours & 46 minutes. it's 7:51pm now. hais :\ where are you (name)? I've been waiting for you, I've been wanting to meet you. You've been wanting to go out with me, probably you've been waiting for my message. I'm impatient baby. i can't wait no more. it's hurting me, i bet you know who are you right. i don't want you to feel irritated by me, cos i got this feeling that I'm irritating you. gosh i hope i don't ):

i feel like letting you go, but I'm fickle-minded. i don't love you but i care for you so much. even if i don't eat, i care for you more. (euw fake ah) i know you still love ure Ex, but what about me? you said you will always be there for me. where are all ure words? c'mon nowadays people lies. i doubt you do okay.

nyeeet! :x i feel like crying. twitter has been always there for me, well that's PEACE LOVE WORDS. i really love my boyfriend. yay for me! okay long post already. hais :/

I'm truly heart-broken. i don't know why. i feel like not using phone, nobody wanna message. i mean YOU didn't message me, my world ain't gonna shine! k whatever.

today is English paper 1. Letter writing & Composition. well it was an okay-okay for me.

thank god the question is easy for me. i chose about 'Pets'. easy what. took out some points about having pets. done! & of course i owned two kittens. duh! makes much more easier for me to do. tomorrow is MT paper 1. i feel like not doing cos i suck in Malay! i know, but luckily it's composition tomorrow. he he God's Willing i can pass amin.

i really gotta go now. alright will update soon! (':

*tears rolling down*

✌ out, eezanie.